The Wonderful Words of Carminelitta

maxxjulian:

THE NEW ISH!!!!!

Not only is this great music, but you can hear my voice on four tracks!

What more could you wish for? :)

saidtheboytothegirl:

“The Clouds” by Andre Jordan.

I live in the clouds.

Reality is not for me.

People say I should come

down. That the clouds

are no place for grown ups

to be. I smile at them.

Maybe one day, I say, maybe

one day I will come down. 

But I never will. Reality

is not for me. I shall stay

up here forever. The view

is quite breathtaking.

Thanks Sah for sharing!

Her: What do you mean, you don’t feel inspired anymore? Life is inspiration!

Me: Well, yeah I guess. I don’t know, I just don’t seem to see the beauty in anything at the moment. You know, everything looks dull and tastes bland to me.

Her: Maybe you should take a break, get away for a while and see things with a new perspective.

Me: You’re right, that sounds like a good idea. I guess all I need is to be far from this place because I can’t get anything done here. It’s just so depressing!

Her: Do you mean being somewhere else will change the situation? Don’t you think it’s all in your head?

Me: But… You just said that I should…

Her: I am just giving you advice. You are the one who knows what to do. You just don’t want to hear it. You want someone to tell you what to do because then you don’t have to take charge, you don’t have to be responsible.

Me: Why do you have to be so harsh with me? I’m trying… It’s not easy!

Her: I am because I care for you. I know you want to do the right thing. You just don’t realise how strong and powerful you are.

Me: Hmmm… I’ve heard this before. It’s all very well to say that anyone can do anything they want to, but in real life…

Her: Oh, I guess you’re right then. You may not be worthy…

Me: Here you go again! Why do you do this to me?

Her: The real question is, why do YOU do this to yourself? 

Me: Ok, ok, I get it! It’s just that I’m scared! All this power in my hands. I don’t know if I can handle it. I’m not used to being in charge, I don’t know where to start.

Her: You already started. You are already on the right path. 

Me: Do you mean that by actually asking you… I mean, asking myself those questions, I am remembering which way to go?

Her: Now, you know the answer as well as I do.

Me: Thank you.

Her: You’re welcome.

standnaked:

*************************************HEY FOLLOWERS*************************************

long story short, my film is in the final round of shadow and act’s online black filmmaker showcase and it stands to win $4000 when its all said and done!!!

it would seriously mean the world if you took out 3 seconds to vote for me and the process is real simple: just click here. select “A Day in the Life” (the first option). select vote. and you’re done. 

Voting Ends Dec 21.

as a side note: i currently have NO JOB and am a full time artist right now working mostly for free so, needless to say, i could REALLY use the money.. 

(here’s a link to the film: http://vimeo.com/31303510 check it out if you haven’t already and let me know what you think..)

if you do vote - let me know and i promise to include your tumblr addy in my next project so more people can follow you.

thanks guys. 

-sah

(Source: sahril.com)

First off, let me avoid the pitfalls of stereotypes: it IS you and it is me. Let’s be honest for a moment and not put unnecessary blame on each other, but acknowledge our faults. You have some and so do I. We put up with each other for 4 years, which is quite a long period of time for this kind of relationship. Things have not always been perfect, but I sure have great memories of our time together. I have to go now, but I am forever grateful to you for everything you gave me. Thanks to you, I gained maturity and a clearer sense of what it is that I want to do in this life. I don’t want to make you feel full of yourself or anything, but that’s a great accomplishment. Also, I met some amazing people through you and created strong bonds that will probably survive after I leave you.
There are many things about you that annoy me and make it difficult for me to stay, but I can’t deny you are quite amazing in many ways. I will miss you for sure and I hope you do the same. I know I’m not the only one but I would like to think I will be remembered, if only once in passing. Sometimes I catch myself dreaming and wishing you were a little bit different. I mean, why do you have to be so dark and stressed out? You seem to want to hide all the goodness under layers of repulsive traits and behaviour. I know I couldn’t change you even if I wanted to and I think it’s best I don’t try. Things are meant to be this way and it would be foolish to deny it.
I guess that’s all I had to say and I hope we stay on good terms. I would love to see you again some day. I’ll be far, but not too far, and you will always be in my heart and mind.

Thank you for everything.

Love.

Saturday 28th July 2012, 21.00, London

Passion. I used to feel you inside me. I remember when I first met you, several years ago. It felt like a rebirth to me, I was possessed by you and achieved so many things thanks to you. What happened? Did I scare you away? Did life stifle you? I reminisce over those days when I felt an urge to write and express my thoughts. I had so much to say back then! So many stories to tell, so many experiences and feelings to share… Maybe I don’t have anything left to say?
I feel this emptiness these days, this utter lack of desire, that makes my body and mind frighteningly cold. Oh, I do feel a surge of inspiration or interest every now and then, but it’s not like it used to be. I wonder if things will ever be the same again. Will I feel this fire within once more? Will I wake up in the middle of the night to write down my innermost thoughts and feelings before they escape my grasp? I gave up trying a while ago now, but should I fight for you, passion? Should I show you I am worthy of you and will put you to good use? I guess asking all those questions is just a way for me to realise I already know the answers. I miss you. I think we work well together and I look forward to feeling you again. 

Because I can relate to those words.

I will share more with you soon.

(numbness) fathom 9 (via fathom9)

Since I haven’t shared my words in an eternity, I might as well share some beauty…

standnaked:

Thought of You (Dope 2D Animation Music Video)

I don’t usually share much more than personal writing or recordings on here, but this review for the latest project by The Maxx (aka Maxx Julian) I’m featured on, written by talented MC/producer/writer Sincere Vega is too good not to share it with you. 

Enjoy the write-up and the music!

sincerevegamusic:

ENTER.. THE MAXX

I am a producer. I live and breathe sounds 25/8/366. Throughout my travels, I learned that most people who have the ability to create rhythms or beats are most definitely not producers. The definition of a producer for me lies beyond simple sample chopping and linear drum…

(Source: themaxx.bandcamp.com, via sincerevegamusic)